Thank
you so much for visiting my blog. I decided to
write this blog simply because I have so many people that want to show their
support as I approach this road to living cancer free, and I don't have enough
time in the day to reach out to everyone that I WANT and so very much NEED
to.
In the
past couple of weeks, my life has taken a sudden turn in direction and I have
been confronted with a slight hill to overcome.
I was
diagnosed with Stage 1 Breast Cancer on Friday, April 26th. Mind you, I found the lump on Sunday, April 21st and
five days later here we were with a diagnosis.
Now, in the words of Guilianna Rancic it was like "total amazeballs". I am surrounded by the most incredible professionals
I could imagine and they mean business, man! Let me step back
a minute, my husband (now known as world's greatest breast examiner, because
that's totally what we were doing...ha!) found my lump, which I thought was a
dirty joke. However, he
wasn't kidding and I started my lovely worrying process of asking a million
questions, followed by my husband reassurring me that it was going to be fine
and the classic "if you want me to take you to Urgent Care I will",
followed by my "no, I'm just blowing this out of proportion"
business. Yes, that is how
it goes every time for this anxiety stricken woman.
The
following day, I got an appointment with Dr. Susan K. Klingner (love that her
name and initials are the same as my mom's, it's fate I tell you). She reassurred me that it probably wasn't anything,
but their policy was to be precautious and they ordered a mammogram and
sonogram for the same day. I'm not talking
that they told me that I needed to get one sometime, I'm talking that they
booked the appointment for three hours later that very day. Love them! I remember
getting in my car and immediately trying to call Brent...who didn't answer,
it's called a ringtone for a reason not vibrate tone dude! I continued to totally freak out as I was driving back
to school and finally Brent called back. He couldn't come
with me to this appointment on such short notice, so I went for my next best
available option, my mom-in-law, Juli. When I picked
her up, I had calmed down a bit after talking to my mom and knowing I would
have an escort to my first boob squashing appointment. This was followed up with a long explanation of what
they had determined, which was that I did indeed find a mass and they needed to
do a biopsy to determine if it was malignant or benign. All I could do at this appointment was try to pick
up on any words of positive reinforcement, however, by the time I was walking
out the door, I had nothing. The biopsy was
then arranged for Thursday.
I was so
relieved to know that my number one would be my escort for my next appointment. I was scared...which was an understatement. I was told that they wouldn't be able to give me any
results until Monday or Tuesday of the next week which meant a waiting game
over the weekend.
Dr.
Klingner attempted to call me a number of times on Friday, but was unable to
connect, which is still a puzzle in my head because my phone was with me at all
times and on the whole day since we were in Denver at the Zoo with our daughter
and her classmates. The doctor's
office finally reached us at 3:00pm that day.
After learning about my diagnosis from Dr. Klingner, again I was so impressed
with the office policies. She had already
set up an appointment with my Encologist, Dr. Medgyssey and another appointment
with Dr. Dickinson my surgeon. Little did I
know that in the breast cancer world in Fort Collins, these two doctors are considered to be
members of the Dream Team. Talk about being
blessed.
Unfortunately,
I was immediately faced with the toughest situation I have ever been confronted
with....how in the world do I tell my sweet babies? It was a bummer, that's for sure. I didn't have the opportunity to think about it for
very long because they were with my husband and I at the doctor's office...and
it isn't very often that mommy and daddy are both sobbing without due cause. I will never forget their sweet responses to this
disappointing news. My sweet little
boy, Rylan, responded with "Mommy, what's wrong?" and my daughter,
Payton, responded with "Why are you crying?". After collecting myself, I crouched down and
explained that I was sick inside and that I needed to get better. I chose not to use the "C-word" because
that could be down right scary to a 5 and 6-year old in our world of misconception today. My son immediately collapsed in my arms and started
sobbing and my daughter was very confused about the situation. She pulled a typical 6-year old and started asking
lots of questions, followed by crying when she realized what was going on. After a long hugging and kissing session with my
adorable lil' family, we headed out of the office and I'm pretty sure we scared
the holy daylights out of any patients in the waiting room. Whoopsadaisy....not
intentionally.
After
this shocking news, we proceeded to drive home, only two blocks away from our
house (it's all about convenience here). My daughter had
a soccer game that day and we had about 45 minutes until we needed to leave to
get her there on time. Brent asked me
if I wanted to go to the soccer game and me being a little "Debbie
Downer" replied with a shrug and "I don't know." I proceeded to call my mom and sister, which happen
to be in the same place at the same time, so on speaker phone I tried to speak
as clearly as possible while I was completely breaking down and devastated. Now
for anyone who knows me, I pace like a crazy woman when I am on the phone...we
are talking pathways people, around and around and around...its the only
exercising this lady takes part in daily :o) I was sitting
down when I was having this conversation, so that means totally SERIOUS! After saying my I love yous, I made a very important
decision that will resignate in my heart from here on out....this disease WILL
NOT..I repeat WILL NOT take
any memories from me or my family. So...I went to
my daughter's game 45 minutes after this life-changing news and her team was
playing the Zach Elementary 1st Grade Girl's team...yes, I know most of the
sweeties on that team. Boy, was that a
challenge, but there is nothing better than a great big hug from my daughter
after a great game and a billion hugs from the sweet little people that I am so
privileged to work with everyday. I wouldn't have
changed that moment for anything in the world.
This day would be the start of the 3 longest days of our lives (Brent and
I....although I think he was more stressed than I was) as we wouldn't find out
how serious the cancer was until Tuesday of the following week..............to
be continued with pictures I promise :o)
You can beat this Mrs. Uhrich! You have a great attitude so far! Keep strong!
ReplyDelete- Jim, Allison, Piper, Max and Riley Klein
Amy, Your amazing strength and positive attitude will help you beat this! We are behind you 100%! Sending you huge hugs! The Moss Family - Marjorie, Woody, Madison and Nathan
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for sharing your story. You have touched our lives so much by loving and teaching our children. Now we send you all our love, and wishing you health and happiness. Love, Steve, Margaret, Kevin and Erin Hamilton
ReplyDeleteWe've never had you as a teacher at Zach, but I am always in awe of the positive attitude that radiates whenever I see you, be it in the hallway or out directing kids and traffic. Thank you for sharing your story. Your determination, positive attitude and support system will get you through this.
ReplyDeleteYOU GO GIRL!! I WILL DO MY PART TO KEEP THAT "WONDERFUL" :) HUSBAND OF YOUR'S UN-STRESSED AS IT APPEARS YOU ARE MORE THAN CAPABLE OF KICKING BUTT!! HE WILL BE FINE TOO - AND AS YOU KNOW YOU HAVE A SUPPORT GROUP THAT WE ALL HOPE WE MIGHT HAVE WHEN FACING LIFE'S SUDDEN SUPRISES. THAT SAYS A LOT ABOUT YOU THE "AWESOME" AMY THAT I KNOW!!
ReplyDeleteBIG HUG FROM "GT"
My best friend went through this two years ago. It's a tough journey, but you are clearly a strong, awesome woman! My friend is doing great two years after her diagnosis. I love the blog already and I know you have tons of support and fans at Zach! Thanks so much for sharing your journey.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for sharing your journey with us. You have amazing strength and courage, and clearly a sense of humor--all of which will help you beat this!!! From the moment we met you, it was your smile that stood out, and I know that your positive energy will pull you through to "AWESOMENESS!" We are pulling for you, too!!!!!!!! Thanks for all you do!
ReplyDeleteLove, Melanie, Tim, Ryan, and Kyle Fisher
Your sharing this journey with everyone is a testament to the giving & courageous woman you are...please know this, that you are not alone in this fight...you are SO loved & admired!
ReplyDeleteYou and your family will be in countless thoughts and prayers each and every day. Go Amy!!!
Love,
Paula, Brian, Blake & Kate Classen
Amy you are an amazing person and have an amazing person by your side in Brent. You never know how strong a person you are until you are faced with a true challenge. You will also find out how many people you have around that truly care and are there anytime for anything!
ReplyDeleteYou are gonna win this battle and you will beat this. Thanks for sharing your journey with us and continue to keep this positive energy. All the best wishes from us...
ReplyDeleteSelma-Murat and Eren Uludogan
Amy:
ReplyDeleteMy mom was diagnosed with breast cancer last year and Dr Dickinson is her surgeon. He is wonderful - you do have the dream team! A year later and she is cancer free!! Just like you will be very soon!!
Wishing you all the best!
LOVE your attitude Amy. You will be in our prayers. XO!
ReplyDeleteAmy...praying for you from California! You've got the strength, attitude, and faith to beat this! Love, jess
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you'll be heading lots of stories of success and encouragement. Catching it early is so key! My mom was diagnosed when I was pregnant with David. Now, almost 12 years later, she is still cancer free. Our prayers are with you.
ReplyDeleteThe Grosenbachs
Amy you are a strong woman and will beat this. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers daily.
ReplyDeleteHugs, Sharon (the gal from down under!!)
DEAR AMY, YOUR BRAVERY IN SHARING EACH STEP OF YOUR JOURNEY TO 'CANCER FREE' IS TRULY INSPIRATIONAL. YOU CERTAINLY ARE NOT ALONE ON THIS ROAD - NOT ONLY WITH YOUR IMMEDIATE FAMILY AND FRIENDS BY YOUR SIDE - BUT WITH ALL OF US WHO YOU HAVE TOUCHED ALONGSIDE YOU. PLEASE NEVER HESITATE TO CALL ON US FOR ANYTHING. WE WILL 'WALK WITH YOU' EVERY STEP OF THE WAY TO AWESOMENESS!
ReplyDeleteWITH LOVE, THE MATTOCH FAMILY (KIELA, LUANA, SABINA, INGERLISA & SCOTT)